Andy called me and asked if I was still going to the concert, then gave me a compliment and held my hand — is he showing interest again?

I hear how much this waiting is eating at you. That ache of not knowing, checking your phone, wondering if he's looking at your pictures the way you're looking at his — it's exhausting and it hurts. I'm not going to pretend I know what he's thinking or when he'll reach out, because the truth is, I can't tell you that. What I can tell you is that you're spending your precious energy on someone who isn't spending theirs on you right now. And that matters. You matter. The real question isn't when he'll come back — it's how long you're willing to keep living in this waiting room of your own life. Look at your pictures. Look at yourself in those photos. That person deserves someone who shows up, not someone you have to wonder about. I'm not saying it's easy, but honey, don't shrink your world down to waiting for him. Expand it. Fill it with things that don't leave you guessing.

I hear how much this waiting is eating at you. That ache of not knowing, checking your phone, wondering if he's looking at your pictures the way you're looking at his — it's exhausting and it hurts. I'm not going to pretend I know what he's thinking or when he'll reach out, because the truth is, I can't tell you that. What I can tell you is that you're spending your precious energy on someone who isn't spending theirs on you right now. And that matters. You matter. The real question isn't when he'll come back — it's how long you're willing to keep living in this waiting room of your own life. Look at your pictures. Look at yourself in those photos. That person deserves someone who shows up, not someone you have to wonder about. I'm not saying it's easy, but honey, don't shrink your world down to waiting for him. Expand it. Fill it with things that don't leave you guessing.

You handled the GM situation exactly right. Keeping a confidence isn't betrayal of the group; it's basic integrity. Your coworkers' anger came from being caught off-guard, not from you doing something wrong. You were right: if you'd passed along every quitting threat that never materialized, you'd have cried wolf and lost all credibility. You chose discretion over gossip, and that's rare. What matters now is the pattern. Trust is being withheld from you in return. You're being kept in the dark about your own promotion, denied computer access, dragged along. That's not a culture that respects you back. You kept someone else's secret; they won't give you a straight answer about your own future. Andy stepping up more consistently, kissing back, showing up, keeping his word from the graveside conversation -- that's a relational shift you can observe and enjoy without overanalyzing. Let the pattern build before you assign it meaning. Actions repeated over time are what count, not isolated moments. On the work front: stop waiting for them to decide for you. Ask directly for a timeline on the promotion decision. If they deflect or stall, you have your answer without them having to say no. You don't have to quit, but you do have to stop being the one who keeps everyone else's secrets while nobody keeps yours.

You handled the GM situation exactly right. Keeping a confidence isn't betrayal of the group; it's basic integrity. Your coworkers' anger came from being caught off-guard, not from you doing something wrong. You were right: if you'd passed along every quitting threat that never materialized, you'd have cried wolf and lost all credibility. You chose discretion over gossip, and that's rare. What matters now is the pattern. Trust is being withheld from you in return. You're being kept in the dark about your own promotion, denied computer access, dragged along. That's not a culture that respects you back. You kept someone else's secret; they won't give you a straight answer about your own future. Andy stepping up more consistently, kissing back, showing up, keeping his word from the graveside conversation -- that's a relational shift you can observe and enjoy without overanalyzing. Let the pattern build before you assign it meaning. Actions repeated over time are what count, not isolated moments. On the work front: stop waiting for them to decide for you. Ask directly for a timeline on the promotion decision. If they deflect or stall, you have your answer without them having to say no. You don't have to quit, but you do have to stop being the one who keeps everyone else's secrets while nobody keeps yours.

Three years of cheating, and he's telling people he "tried for 15 years" as if the affair was just a footnote. That's not a man who's ready for reconciliation. That's a man who's still writing a version of the story where he's the victim. I know you're wondering if he'll come around, but here's what I see more clearly: you've already survived three years of betrayal while he was living a double life. That takes guts and endurance you're not giving yourself credit for. Accountability is the floor for any real reconciliation, not the ceiling. If he can't even stand in the truth of what he did, he's not equipped to rebuild anything with you. That's not your failure to be enough or say the right thing - it's his inability to face himself. Whether he eventually wakes up and owns it? I can't say. But what I can tell you is that you don't have to wait around in the wreckage of his making to find out. The energy you're spending on hoping he'll change could go toward healing the person who's actually been through all this - you.

Three years of cheating, and he's telling people he "tried for 15 years" as if the affair was just a footnote. That's not a man who's ready for reconciliation. That's a man who's still writing a version of the story where he's the victim. I know you're wondering if he'll come around, but here's what I see more clearly: you've already survived three years of betrayal while he was living a double life. That takes guts and endurance you're not giving yourself credit for. Accountability is the floor for any real reconciliation, not the ceiling. If he can't even stand in the truth of what he did, he's not equipped to rebuild anything with you. That's not your failure to be enough or say the right thing - it's his inability to face himself. Whether he eventually wakes up and owns it? I can't say. But what I can tell you is that you don't have to wait around in the wreckage of his making to find out. The energy you're spending on hoping he'll change could go toward healing the person who's actually been through all this - you.