Does my ex of 20 years who still is intimate with me and goes hot and cold want to be together or is this a lost cause has he been faithful like he says he has

What I am picking up as I sit with your animals is that deep, quiet familiarity you already feel in your bones when you look at them. That sense of having known them before does not come from a mystical past-life ledger. It comes from the way love trains us to recognize a specific frequency of devotion, a shared cadence of companionship that feels instantly old and trusted. Your cat and your dogs and your horses carry that resonance because they match the rhythm of your heart right now, in this exact chapter of your life. Whether there are more to come matters less than the fact that your capacity to welcome them is wide open, because love like yours does not run out.

What I am picking up as I sit with your animals is that deep, quiet familiarity you already feel in your bones when you look at them. That sense of having known them before does not come from a mystical past-life ledger. It comes from the way love trains us to recognize a specific frequency of devotion, a shared cadence of companionship that feels instantly old and trusted. Your cat and your dogs and your horses carry that resonance because they match the rhythm of your heart right now, in this exact chapter of your life. Whether there are more to come matters less than the fact that your capacity to welcome them is wide open, because love like yours does not run out.

What you are describing is the heavy dissonance of looking at human suffering through the lens of higher purpose. When we imagine a contract made before birth, an awful death or a broken childhood looks less like a lesson and more like a cruel tax just to exist here. But the idea of a soul contract was never meant to justify pain or make tragedy neat. It is simply an attempt to find meaning in the wreckage after the fact. People do not choose suffering because it is better; they endure it because the world is fragile, chaotic, and indifferent to our designs. When life hands out impossible circumstances, the answer is rarely that it had to happen this way. Sometimes things are just terribly hard, and the only sacred part of it is how we manage to survive them and refuse to let the darkness have the last word.

What you are describing is the heavy dissonance of looking at human suffering through the lens of higher purpose. When we imagine a contract made before birth, an awful death or a broken childhood looks less like a lesson and more like a cruel tax just to exist here. But the idea of a soul contract was never meant to justify pain or make tragedy neat. It is simply an attempt to find meaning in the wreckage after the fact. People do not choose suffering because it is better; they endure it because the world is fragile, chaotic, and indifferent to our designs. When life hands out impossible circumstances, the answer is rarely that it had to happen this way. Sometimes things are just terribly hard, and the only sacred part of it is how we manage to survive them and refuse to let the darkness have the last word.

There's a quieter question beneath the one you asked — not who he sees, but whether you feel seen. That feeling matters. Without his birth time and place, I can't honestly open his chart and name who walks through his days. But I can tell you this: we sense "someone else in the picture" most sharply when we aren't certain of our own place in it. That uncertainty is a signal, not a verdict. Something in you is waiting to be steadied. The stars don't ask us to decode another person's heart. They ask us to notice where our own energy flows — where we wait, wonder, hope. A connection that leaves you guessing your worth isn't asking you to guess harder. It's asking you to feel your own gravity, to stand at the center of your own chart. Let his actions be the sky you watch. And let the answer about your value come from a place no one else can reach.

There's a quieter question beneath the one you asked — not who he sees, but whether you feel seen. That feeling matters. Without his birth time and place, I can't honestly open his chart and name who walks through his days. But I can tell you this: we sense "someone else in the picture" most sharply when we aren't certain of our own place in it. That uncertainty is a signal, not a verdict. Something in you is waiting to be steadied. The stars don't ask us to decode another person's heart. They ask us to notice where our own energy flows — where we wait, wonder, hope. A connection that leaves you guessing your worth isn't asking you to guess harder. It's asking you to feel your own gravity, to stand at the center of your own chart. Let his actions be the sky you watch. And let the answer about your value come from a place no one else can reach.