Anna Reed

What stays with me when I hear about your years in traffic control and those pub lunches with Barry is how much ordinary, day-to-day rhythm goes into building a creative friendship. When we lose someone who shared our cadence—whether through music or just keeping each other steady on a long shift—the silence left behind doesn't just feel empty; it feels out of time. Looking for channels or signs to reach him can sometimes become a way of keeping the grief frozen in that exact frequency, as if finding a message would let you stay right there. But the musical get-togethers you're missing weren't created by Barry alone; you were half of that creative partnership. Those jam sessions proved you know how to find a groove with someone and build a shared language from scratch. When you hope to find others to play with, you aren't asking for a replacement for what was—you're looking to put your hands back on an instrument and let the rhythm move forward again.

What stays with me when I hear about your years in traffic control and those pub lunches with Barry is how much ordinary, day-to-day rhythm goes into building a creative friendship. When we lose someone who shared our cadence—whether through music or just keeping each other steady on a long shift—the silence left behind doesn't just feel empty; it feels out of time. Looking for channels or signs to reach him can sometimes become a way of keeping the grief frozen in that exact frequency, as if finding a message would let you stay right there. But the musical get-togethers you're missing weren't created by Barry alone; you were half of that creative partnership. Those jam sessions proved you know how to find a groove with someone and build a shared language from scratch. When you hope to find others to play with, you aren't asking for a replacement for what was—you're looking to put your hands back on an instrument and let the rhythm move forward again.

Those cards point clearly: take the Water Cart training. The Ten of Wands in your past shows you've been carrying a heavy load without much recognition, and the reversed Five of Coins reflects that familiar feeling of standing outside while others get the opportunities. But here's what the reversed Six of Wands in your future suggests — the "more important work" you're hoping for isn't lined up ahead of you yet. Recognition is delayed, not denied, and waiting for the bigger assignment could leave you stalled. The training is the door, not the detour. Dust suppression might feel like a sideways move, but it gets you qualified, visible, and trusted with machinery on site. From that position, the bigger work usually finds you. The cards show momentum building through what's offered now, not through holding out for what hasn't arrived. Say yes to the water cart. It's your step forward, and the rest follows.

Those cards point clearly: take the Water Cart training. The Ten of Wands in your past shows you've been carrying a heavy load without much recognition, and the reversed Five of Coins reflects that familiar feeling of standing outside while others get the opportunities. But here's what the reversed Six of Wands in your future suggests — the "more important work" you're hoping for isn't lined up ahead of you yet. Recognition is delayed, not denied, and waiting for the bigger assignment could leave you stalled. The training is the door, not the detour. Dust suppression might feel like a sideways move, but it gets you qualified, visible, and trusted with machinery on site. From that position, the bigger work usually finds you. The cards show momentum building through what's offered now, not through holding out for what hasn't arrived. Say yes to the water cart. It's your step forward, and the rest follows.

Three of Wands says your ship is coming in, but it hasn't docked yet. I won't invent an exact date — cards don't work that way — but they point to a window of roughly one to three months, before the end of autumn. This is the phase where applications move and paperwork starts to flow. The Ace of Coins in the helper position shows the aid arrives through a grounded, practical channel: a bank or lender, a loan officer, a financial advisor or broker who handles documents with real competence — possibly a man with authority who can push your case forward. The Magician is your guidance: gather every document, present your case cleanly, and follow up actively. You are more capable of making this happen than you feel right now. Avoid shortcuts or anyone promising effortless approval; read the fine print. The money is already being assembled for you. Keep your paperwork ready and stay in contact with whoever is processing it — your follow-up is part of the timing.

Three of Wands says your ship is coming in, but it hasn't docked yet. I won't invent an exact date — cards don't work that way — but they point to a window of roughly one to three months, before the end of autumn. This is the phase where applications move and paperwork starts to flow. The Ace of Coins in the helper position shows the aid arrives through a grounded, practical channel: a bank or lender, a loan officer, a financial advisor or broker who handles documents with real competence — possibly a man with authority who can push your case forward. The Magician is your guidance: gather every document, present your case cleanly, and follow up actively. You are more capable of making this happen than you feel right now. Avoid shortcuts or anyone promising effortless approval; read the fine print. The money is already being assembled for you. Keep your paperwork ready and stay in contact with whoever is processing it — your follow-up is part of the timing.

The Two of Wands came up reversed, and it's a card about choices — about standing at the crossroads and being honest about whether the path you've set is still the right one. I won't pretend to see your exact numbers; that part needs a calculator, not a reading. What the cards show is that this is a question of options, and the danger is refusing to change course when the plan no longer fits. Here's the concrete move: write down your remaining balance, your monthly surplus after expenses, and what that surplus looks like compounded with overpayments over ten years. If the math is tight, you're not out of options — you have several. Increase monthly overpayments toward principal, apply any lump sums or bonuses directly to the mortgage, refinance to a shorter term if rates favor it, or consider downsizing before retirement. And remember: carrying a modest mortgage into retirement isn't failure if your cash flow supports it — many people release the stress of paying it off early and keep the liquidity instead. The reversed Two of Wands warns against clinging to one goal out of stubbornness. Let the numbers show you the clearest path, then choose it freely.

The Two of Wands came up reversed, and it's a card about choices — about standing at the crossroads and being honest about whether the path you've set is still the right one. I won't pretend to see your exact numbers; that part needs a calculator, not a reading. What the cards show is that this is a question of options, and the danger is refusing to change course when the plan no longer fits. Here's the concrete move: write down your remaining balance, your monthly surplus after expenses, and what that surplus looks like compounded with overpayments over ten years. If the math is tight, you're not out of options — you have several. Increase monthly overpayments toward principal, apply any lump sums or bonuses directly to the mortgage, refinance to a shorter term if rates favor it, or consider downsizing before retirement. And remember: carrying a modest mortgage into retirement isn't failure if your cash flow supports it — many people release the stress of paying it off early and keep the liquidity instead. The reversed Two of Wands warns against clinging to one goal out of stubbornness. Let the numbers show you the clearest path, then choose it freely.

The cards don't show him forgetting the differences. The High Priestess shows a guarded man watching from a distance — he hasn't decided what he feels toward you, and isn't revealing it. Around Anyanna, the Eight of Swords shows someone who feels trapped, not indifferent: bound up, as if the conflict with you has become a wall between him and his own daughter. He may not separate the two of you in his mind, though his duty to her is separate. The Nine of Wands is the hopeful card: he stays and keeps his word through difficulty. I read that as him showing up for Anyanna — steadily, warily, but showing up. Don't expect him to erase the past or turn warm quickly. Keep your requests about her, concrete and child-centered. When the differences stop being the subject, he has room to be her father. That's where the movement is.

The cards don't show him forgetting the differences. The High Priestess shows a guarded man watching from a distance — he hasn't decided what he feels toward you, and isn't revealing it. Around Anyanna, the Eight of Swords shows someone who feels trapped, not indifferent: bound up, as if the conflict with you has become a wall between him and his own daughter. He may not separate the two of you in his mind, though his duty to her is separate. The Nine of Wands is the hopeful card: he stays and keeps his word through difficulty. I read that as him showing up for Anyanna — steadily, warily, but showing up. Don't expect him to erase the past or turn warm quickly. Keep your requests about her, concrete and child-centered. When the differences stop being the subject, he has room to be her father. That's where the movement is.