Does kc really love me and want only me or am I being delusional?
Does kc really love me and want only want me or am I being delusional?
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Maya Quinn
@MayaQuinn
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You didn't ask whether kc loves you. You asked whether you're delusional. Notice where the doubt landed: on you, not on them.
What I sense underneath is something familiar, the old position of being the one who cares more and has learned to pretend that's fine. When that's the shape of a person's history, wanting something plain and stated starts to feel like a character flaw. It isn't. Wanting to be chosen is not a symptom.
Your longing is real whether or not kc feels the same. It tells you something about what you need, not about what they feel. Those are two separate truths, and you can hold both without calling yourself crazy.
So the honest work isn't squeezing a clearer verdict out of kc. It's sitting with what you'd say if you trusted your own read, and whether you could survive an answer you weren't hoping for. That isn't delusion. That's the fog starting to lift.
Cara Holt
@CaraHolt
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Nobody outside your head can tell you what kc feels. What I can tell you is that "am I delusional?" is a question that never gets settled by thinking harder. It gets settled by patterns. Does kc show up on ordinary days, not just the good ones? Do they tell you things before you have to ask? When something hurts you, does it land? Are you calmer after talking to them, or more wound up?
If most of those are yes, the loop in your head is anxiety, not evidence. If most are no, you probably already know, and you're hoping someone will argue you out of it.
Either way, wanting to be sure doesn't make you delusional. That's just what caring does to a person. Just don't hand kc the job of proving it forever. Say what you need out loud once, and let their answer be information.
Renee Adams
@ReneeAdams
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Wanting to be someone's only, wanting to be sure, that doesn't make you delusional. It makes you someone whose heart is all in. You are not too much for needing clarity.
But look at how much of your day goes into decoding kc. Feeling for where they stand. That's real work, and you're allowed to be tired of it. You've been holding this question open largely alone, and that's a lonely way to love somebody.
Certainty isn't something you can scavenge hard enough to find. Real love doesn't turn you into a detective. It arrives plainly, and you rest in it instead of studying it.
So the question isn't whether you're crazy. It's whether this is feeding you or draining you. You're allowed to want a love that doesn't leave you guessing. A permanent maybe is too small a thing to build a heart around.
Take your time. Be gentle with yourself tonight.
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